I do feel that I operate out of some white guilt and that it can rear its ugly head as a combative conversation with friends, trying to prove my point. I don't think that I aim to be superior, I think my intention is overall wanting to raise the consciousness of all white people, including myself. As I write this I see how this is also operating from a possible place of being the white hero. I want to remind myself to listen and hopefully like Luvvie Ajay be the first domino by asking the hard questions. But before I do making sure 1. I mean what I am saying. 2. I can defend what I am saying and probably most important to me 3. That I am saying it with love.