I think one of the hardest things to work through is the combination of white guilt and white exceptionalism. In my adult years I have done a lot of work to overcome my belief that I am a "good white person"; although I don't dwell on the terminology I do consider how my words and actions behave in the world. I am conscious of being supportive and working toward an anti-racist workplace and personal environment. I don't consciously experience white guilt, but am very aware of it in our bigger staff (120 people) when we as leaders are presenting ways our staff can help move the agenda on anti-racism further ahead. In those moments I realize how prevalent white guilt is among our white staff, and now difficult the environment can be for our staff of color.