Throughout this entire training, I kept thinking about members of my family and my husband's family who fairly regularly make inappropriate comments about race. I have always thought that, because I wasn't going to change their opinions or beliefs, that I would just stay silent or change the subject. Occasionally, I would make my opinions and ideals known, but then it got to the point where a member of my family would say offensive things just to "see my response." So, while I do feel like there are a lot of great tips within this module, I still don't know that I have the tools needed to approach these conversations with family. In terms of friends, I generally don't have many interactions with people who don't share anti racist beliefs, but I also live in a city that tends to be a bit of a liberal bubble.
On the other hand, I do feel more prepared to engage in these conversations professionally. While I have consistently been having conversations around how we engage more people within the organization in anti racist work, I think there's a point at which these ideals are halted and I have to be better about pushing them forward.
While watching the first video, I kept feeling in awe of the speaker and wanting to emulate her fearless approach. But I also have 2 (almost 3) kids and I do need to be concerned with things like job security, retirement accounts, and keeping positive relationships within my workplace. Because of this, I feel like my ability to speak truth to power is limited. I think my approach needs to be a bit more calculated because of this.