My thoughts are that they all exist and they are so very strong. They help us, white people, put on blinders to the real issues. I have totally leaned into my white exceptionalism by not even recognizing that it existed! The white gulit and shame are for sure present. I really hope that I can lean into them to help me to change and to advocate for change. I am not sure that my white gulit has reached the toxic level but I will also be the first to say that at 43 this is the first time I have truly dug into these issues of racism and anti-racism. I hope that by reading, listening, and having conversations I will be able to help in some way, even if it may be in a small way.