On my way to Advocate, definitely not apathetic, pretty active and learning, I don't wake up one morning and say, "From now on, I am an advocate. It's a journey. I find that I am becoming more able to speak up and speak directly to racism, but maybe not so much. In a group of well-meaning people at my church, everyone wanted to start "helping," by reaching out to Black churches, looking for places to fix things, etc. I was frustrated. But I started sending emails to the group, listing resources that might be of interest (i.e., White Privilege). In two weeks, I have not received a single response. On the other hand, last week I went to our weekly friends gathering (socially distancing, of course) and I work my "I can't breathe" shirt. It turns out that my liberal friends all had other things to do, so there I was... awkward. The most conservative of the group asked me about the shirt, and afterwards he spoke about how terrible it has been to see so many Black people being killed. He spoke about how many people we will never know about. I was encouraged, and I was so proud of him. And the other 3 people sat in silence. I'm hoping some osmosis kicked in.