I don't think I have ever recognized my feelings as what they actually were; but looking back, I think that yes, I have felt the white guilt and shame. I teach in residential facilities for kids who have come from jails. 90% of my population of kids of color. I can't tell you how often I've had to write up a kid for an offence in the classroom only to hear "you're racist" as their response. Granted, their anger at being written up was the fuel behind their words and not any actual racist actions on my part; but hearing those words directed at me always causes a reaction inside me that I guess I can attribute to guilt and shame. That is exactly what it feels like.