I was listening to Brene Brown's podcast this morning where she discusses the difference between guilt, shame, humiliation and embarrassment. It's so good and worth listening to as it applies to this training, to white guilt, white shame, white fragility and what the moderator brings up..fatigue. I think a sign of my fatigue is that I'm with my boyfriend and his 15 year old daughter this week and I told her the other night "Have you watched 13th yet? We should watch it while I'm here. I've been wanting to see it". I woke up in the middle of the night remembering that I had just watched it about 10 days ago, posted about it on Instagram, felt deeply impacted by it. I'm also taking this course, am in a DEI working group at work, am listening to podcasts by thought leaders. Am I oversaturating myself with learning in order to not have to perhaps face my own complicity, my own past and upbringing, my own current racial biases, unconscious and conscious? Am I creating a fatigue and how do I make space to sit with all of this information, fully integrate it within myself? Do I need to do that before I am taking action or let the learning, the listening, the self reflection and the action be a big jumble? I'm leaning toward the jumble and if I can get brave enough to challenge racists social media posts with kindness, I feel like that would be a big step for me.