I think, generally, I'm "aware" on the ally continuum. But I do think I demonstrate allyship with my black friends and seek to listen and help them if they should ask for it? I do want to have deeper conversations and ask them if they do want me to speak up against discrimination when we go out or just back them up when or if they call it out. Some of my black friends are so angry now that I know if I said something-called out a racist action, behavior or statement they'd be pissed with me. Others however are too damned tired and would appreciate the call out. Honestly this racially charged environment that we now live has forced me into some awkward but very needed conversations and though I feel the exhaustion I do intend to reach out and connect with all my friends of color and try to speak with them and let them know that I can and will stand with them in whatever way that looks like to them.