I really resonate with "white guilt" and shame. I believe I began as someone who thought I was "good" because I did not do overtly racist things. Then, I became complicit. Worse, I allowed myself to listen/ believe certain racist narratives about the black community (thanks Dad). As I continued my journey, I began to believe more in racism but didn't bother to educate myself enough to argue well, thus becoming a toxic angry white voice. It's really interesting to consider these terms and how I have worked through all of them. Part of it gives me shame at my role in perpetuating racism but another part gives me hope that those who I currently blame (toxic white guilt) for their silence, may just be working through it and one day become an ally.
