Every since the beginning of this training I have been overcome with white guilt and shame for not truly being aware of the systemic racism that is imbedded in this country. And for not being aware of my own implicit bias. For thinking I am the exception and not the problem because I am not racist. But in fact, I am apart of the problem because I am complicit.
I feel that recently I may have been driven by toxic white guilt in conversations with other white people. I see now that is not the way to go about this topic. We all need to listen to one another and not judge each other based upon on where we are on our anti-racist journey. But noticing that participating in and having these conversations are the beginning.
I like what you said about not judging one another on this journey. I consider this training one of an infinite number of steps on that journey. Just like we have said so many times during Covid-19, we are in this together. This training has made me feel more connected and aware. I have been learning to listen more openly and let the concepts sink in while at the same time checking myself and my own guilt and implicit bias.