White exceptionalism and toxic white guilt — two ends of the spectrum. Neither is beneficial. I do feel shame. It is an ongoing struggle to find the most balanced way to speak up or take action. Will what I say or do make matters worse? There is no such thing as an innocent bystander. Since I do have privilege/power, I hope I put it to good use it in a way that will affect the most long-lasting change. — Affecting change as an advocate rather than an impulsive reactionary blurt.