I am definitely guilty of feeling 'toxic guilt' and White Exceptionalism. Even within this training, I find myself defending what I have/haven't done and questioning the words/actions of the POC around me more than my own, especially in the journal. Within my head isn't as bad as my 'journal' entries have been (knowing someone is reading them and possibly responding really altered what I wrote, and not in the way I would have necessarily expected), but it's still obviously been a big challenge for me. I don't really have a solution or question, just felt the need to admit it somewhere.
