I appreciate the comments about guilt and shame and the tendency to shut down. Earlier this year I was engaged in a racial awareness group and I was called out for being a racist in a way that I found very intimidating. I perceived this as a horrible experience and I didn’t want to have anything else to do with any anti-racist anything after that. 
 Then when George Floyd died I was honestly scared that I would be called out again. 
 I am relieved to hear that other well intentioned people have been called out and have experienced strong feelings of guilt and shame. after this course I no longer think that the way I view race is an unfixable problem, but rather something that I can continue to work towards being more aware of.