I am not white, but I am growing from views I had held about being exceptional in terms of "I'm not a racist, I'm a good person... I don't see color." For guilt and shame, I've certainly felt that I've remained more silent and "neutral" about race conversations, but I realize those are no longer options that serve anyone except the oppressor.
I do have to check myself quite often by ensuring that my allyship is less performative and more authentic. I'm also working on ways to engage those with whom I disagree without further hindering their ability to grow from where they are. Fighting against racism is not going to be an easy process, and I know it will likely last the remainder of my lifetime, but I'm here today because I am committed to seeing this through.