I think When I was younger I felt white and male Exceptionalism. I thought I was innocent and never did things intentionally to hurt others. This was before understanding white male privilege. Over the years it waned and I have found myself caring more about actively living an anti-racist life than how I'm perceived or perceive myself. My voice can be used for good, but many white men have already been speaking for hundreds of years and I think it is important to let others take the mic. I do not at all think I am an exception. I have a lot to learn, a lot to change and I am open to and welcome change. Guilt. Yes. Plenty of it. I'm sure it's toxic, but it is important and helps keep the focus on what needs to happen. Shame. Of course. Our history is disgusting. There is no pride in sharing with our youth what White america has put other cultures through so that we can feel special. I'm almost 40 and I think its horrible that The majority of my life was spent in relative ignorance and my privilege wasn't acknowledged (by myself) until way later in life. How many people of color/s live were tainted by my inaction?