I've learned that I look at myself less than how others see me so I may be in the active stage, but I personally believe I'm in between aware and active. I am getting informed, but I feel I'm holding back from sharing/seeking/discussing because of my lack of confidence in myself and I feel like I have so much more to learn. As I type this, I realize that this isn't something I will learn everything about. This is something that I will need to be continuing to reflect and learn about for the rest of my life. It's like I'm using the excuse 'I have so much more to learn' to hide and tell myself it's not yet my place. But this is what is harming and makes me a white bystander and not an ally.