Looking at he contimum I would say I am an advocate. I have been involved in anti-racist organizing in my community around Black racism and Indigenous racism. I help organize protest and internal workings with some groups. I have learned more being involved than any training because I have been building relationships and listen. I encourage folks to do that.
I do this in my classroom as well, but this past year was my first year and I feel upon reflection I could be more intentional and want to refine my curriculum with my colleagues.
I've worked at our local community college for almost 30 years. Faculty and staff created committees for African American, Asian, LGTBTQ and Hispanic students. The thought was to be able to provide a support network for students in these groups. I always felt guilty because not enough attention was given to students that did not fit into those categories. For example special fundraisers for scholarships that benefit these students or events where these students are encouraged to participate. Ultimately, other students could apply but all of the imagery and messages are around these categories.. I just still get a feeling that we're leaving so many deserving students without this assistance.
I would say I'm somewhere between Active and Advocate. What holds me back from feeling truly comfortable saying advocate is that the spaces around me are still too White, but as an introvert with a partner who is even more introverted/bordering on struggling with social anxiety, and living in a very white part of my community, I haven't figured out how to truly be an advocate on a daily basis.