I have seen this video before but this time I focused on how quickly the bosses and prejudices and the narratives took hold both ion external behavior of the kids and on the inside, affecting how then kids felt about themselves. In the subsequent video you talked about this but it hit me really hard that if two days of that narrative can get so deeply into a psyche and into a community then what can 400 years of this insidious narrative do to us both individually and the collective. I also appreciated the point you made in the subsequent video that this narrative also has a negative effect on what people because the narrative speaks of white superiority based on just skin color so there is a spike in self-esteem based on nothing, so it erases all the unique ways that we can express our gifts and everything becomes melted down into vanilla soup. So, the narrative provides privilege and advantage, but it is also empty of ethnicity and character and nuance and even accomplishment. I find it hard to talk about this, to talk about the ways that white privilege has just white people, hurt me, robbed me of the unique color of my humanity. I find it hard too talk about the pain caused by the system on the white oppressor because I do not want to privilege that pain over the pain of there oppressed which seems so much bigger and more traumatizing and less subtle. And as much as there has been damage to the oppressor, there are so many obvious advantages that have been bestowed on me as a white person in this culture. So, finding language for this kind of suffering and pain and naming what was lost in the bestowal of this privilege for white people seems challenging. I think I need and want to understand more how this system of oppression and privilege damages the privileged. And how to talk about it while being sensitive to the enormous pain this caused for the oppressed and underprivileged and how to talk about it without privilege my own pain.
