Like many of the white people in the video, I've never spent much time thinking about my racial identity as a white person. I'm learning that being able to exist without having to come to terms with my race and what it means for my daily life is a huge privilege. The other videos left me with a lot to think about, too. Until now I was unaware of the blood quantum laws that determine if someone "counts" as Native American. It was heart wrenching to see a ten year old boy say that he wants to tell the world he's not going to do anything wrong or hurt anybody, because he knows that he has to counteract the discriminatory stereotype against Black men.
I feel uncomfortable acknowledging all the privilege I have as a white person. It's hard to recognize that the way I experience the world is so different than the way people of other races do, because I'm seen as the default or normal. I'm ashamed of the ways that I've benefitted from my privilege, and all the while not considering how race has played a role in my life. While I'm starting to grasp how white privilege benefits me, I find it harder to see my own entitlement. It's easy to point to white men with guns protesting quarantine because they want a haircut and notice how entitled they are and are acting. But I'm struggling to recognize this attitude in myself and my behaviors. It will definitely give me something to think about for a while.
The TED talk was very powerful to me, because often I do turn off the news if it becomes "too much" or I feel I need a break. The fact that I can walk away from the horrors that Black people experience and cannot ignore is something I never realized was a manifestation of privilege.