So I completed my tests and found the results interesting. I was unsurprised by the bias against Asian Americans, although taking the test brought the bias to the front of my awareness. I have nothing personal against Asian Americans - no hard thoughts or feelings, but I realized during the test how little exposure I have to Asian Americans. I feel that the bias I have exists out of being less familiar with a lot of the Asian cultures. And it is is expressed in feeling slightly less comfortable or slightly anxious when meeting people from these cultures. ......To be very honest, as I type this, I can tell the root of that anxiety is born out of the bias that Asian Americans are "very smart/intelligent" and it reflects back on any intellectual inadequacies I have about myself. Wow, journaling and reflection are so super helpful to bring things to light, and I am grateful for this class to be able to have uncovered that, it was not something I was aware of until just now. I would say that my white fragility has sometimes been triggered by my bias and feelings of inadequacy.
The other test that showed slight bias against was (for me- surprisingly) the Native American test. My question with this test is how the bias is defined-- seeing Native Americans as "foreign" or less American. I suppose I am struggling with this definition as I definitely DO NOT see Native Americans as the version of "American" we as white colonialists have created, after having stolen their land, killed native peoples, and taken away their rights. I could be being completely blinded by my 'bias' somehow on this, but I feel that likening Native Americans to the contemporary and traditional concept of "American" is inaccurate, and would be completely offensive to them. In my mind, seeing them as more 'foreign' is my bias towards this group of people, but I do not think that was how that translated in this test.
Lastly, I suppose I was pleased with my bias towards African Americans, and people with darker skin tones. I am a little perplexed by my delight in this, but it remains nonetheless. I guess I wish I could be non biased across the board for all peoples, but since that is not the world we live in, I definitely am happy to have biases towards all non white/European descent people, instead.
