I felt insanely stressed when I was taking the Implicit Association Test for the first time and very anxious about assigning people with bad connotative words. There was a definite uncomfortable feeling when the pictures were drawings versus actual photos for the Asian and Race IATs. As a white person, I feel appalled that I scored a strong preference for European Americans over African Americans. I also had a moderate preference for Eurocentric light skinned people, which did not surprise me all that much although I hoped that it would be less. I was happy and a bit surprised that I scored as moderately seeing Native Americans as more American.
I don’t know exactly where these biases came from, but I know it started when I was young. Based on Jane Elliot’s third grade experiment, it appears that those who experience discrimination then also experience low self-confidence and lack of motivation to participate. I experience low self-confidence and lack of motivation to participate, but it isn’t attributed to my race by any means which shows me that it must be so much worse for BIPOC groups as everything is multilayered and needs extra unpacking.