I've done some of these tests before, so I wasn't very surprised that three out of the four I had no implicit association/preference either way. I hadn't done the Native IAT though, and the results were surprising to me! I had a strong association with Native Americans and American and White Americans with foreign in that context, in the smallest result group...I think my experience growing up white in Hawaiʻi definitely colored that result. As a kid, I was bullied by my classmates for being haole (local term for white, with foreign connotations), and of course it was difficult at the time because I didn't have the tools to process it, but I think it was a pretty valuable experience. I am a foreigner in the place I grew up, I am a settler, and I am not entitled to this place by virtue of my racial position. I often feel that just in the way I navigate the land, that this place is not really mine. I went on a hike today and the thought of the politics of appreciating the beauty of the land crossed my mind, as I am reading a great book by a Hawaiian theorist and leader. She talks about how colonialism has prostituted these islands, making them into a metaphoric sexually available woman for white people to plunder and abuse. As I admired the beauty of the mountains, I thought about what I can't see and how I can create a healthier personal model in the meantime to relate to this place I was raised in. If Hawaiʻi is prostituted, how do I support her without funneling resources into her continued exploitation? And how can I move beyond this sexist metaphor to really begin to see this place as it is and has been beneath all the tourist trappings: not prostituted, but full and dynamic? The apparent end in sight to this train of thought as I'm exploring it is that there will always be an element of mystery to my experience of my young home. Full knowledge is not possible for me as a haole without some kind of presumptive violation, which would be doomed and mistaken. The course of the majority of haole histories of Hawaiʻi is demonstrably shallow, and that's something I wish to act against. It was affirming to see that my biases agree with me there.