I have taken the IAT Tests in college and now 5 years later, I have different scores. And I believe that is due to the exposure to Anti-Racism Trainings, clients that I've had one-on-one therapeutic relationships with, Black creators on social media, and education/readings. My results surprised me because while I was taking the tests I thought I was going to show a wide margin between my preferences for different people groups...but the results showed slight or little to no preference and even slightly more preference for Native Americans as American (my brain could not & would not gather how they are supposed to be considered foreign?!). I find it interesting that I'm surprised by these results.... I wonder what that means. That I am more consciously bias than my implicit bias? I also feel the trap of using this as "see I'm a good white person" or feeling "holier than thou" in comparison to my family members. UGH. Gross. I don't like that response.
I'm proud that my investment in the work has led to these changes in my IAT from then to now.
I'm proud that I am un-learning and re-learning...and I'm going to keep doing that.
