While completing the tests and a couple question after the test, I felt as if the questions and how we answered them, and how they were paired could have made a couple of my answers not fully true but biased and altered by association. Due to it, it was somewhat stressfull, whenever I messed up. There were couple images which in my personal view fit the other group more however it wasn't , and I'd keep missing that and it would just mess up the E and I pressing.
For the results I personally agreed with most of them. It would make sense how my subconscious works with the media I grew up with, education as well as who I looked up to. In many of the results I did get a "equal" answer but I think that may be due to me being Asian American and I travel between two different country and culture somewhat more frequently and have to be more open minded, which led me to not favor one or the other as much.
As I said most of them were equal, but for skin tone, I did get "automatically, slighty prefering darker skin than light". Which I personally can agree as I do sometimes look at certain trends and not really a fan of them. Many of the K-Pop, Jpop etc... and many fashion seem to lean towards and favor light pale skin. Sometimes I think it's way too pale, and worry that they lack vitamins from the sun...
I was raised in the southern states, so I personally did have darker skin as I was out in the sun more. Even my sibling and I were Asian, due to out dark skin sometime we were assumed to be Latinos.
My School was in a district where predominantly it was black. At the school I may have been one of the few or possibly only Asian. My teachers were African American as well as most of my classmates, and it was a great community. I suppose due to that I did "speak" like a black, at times and I remember one times feeling discomfort being said told I was described like that. In someway it seemed like the person was looking down upon me due to the way I spoke and, by looking down on me it also meant they most likely looked down upon black people as well. I really hated it... and it still bothers me to this day whenever I think about it. That was from a fellow Asian, probably not born in the states though...
That aside, I felt connected to the black community a lot more as a kid, and there's still a resonance within in even though I've moved out to a different state. I've met so many people I look up to as well as people I love and introduced to specific media and trends at the time and I suppose I get drawn to darker skinned people more than white people and feel more comfortable.
Though the test was for Asian American, I can personally say I have a deep bias with what Asian Americans are, as well as "pure"Asian etc.
I compare myself as well as the general public I've seen and met which I know is only a fraction of people but I see how different that Asian Americans are from Asians and well other groups.
I've never really joined that many Asian American Associations, and deeply was part of. I feel that I don't really sometimes fit in. Asian American could mean a person with both Asian and American descent but also an Asian born in the states with citizenship as well.
As it came up before, I wasn't really raised in a "Asian American" community, and I've experienced a sort of segregation being "Asian American" sounding slightly black then, from a Asian person who I met in the states! I found out how different I was from "them" and I had my fears of being judged. To some extent to this day I still do have the fear of being judged and seen different. There has been part of me who's started accepting myself for who I am, however within my Identity I still feel hesitant to be Asian American. As I don't really fit the stereotype. I really shouldn't worry about it, and I don't understand Why I can't just not care about it as much as other stereotypes and identity within my intersectionality.
Talking about Asian people have a slight bias of disliking K-pop as well. Being true, I've met some nice Korean people. However I've had bad experience with them as well, one being the person who called me out sounding black as well as A Korean American schoolmate I had in school. I've noticed that their beauty standard is usually lighter skin fairer, and in some way they dislike, and look down upon darker skin and perhaps things related to it as well. *This bias, I know as I was fortunate to meet better people.
So when I went back to Japan to meet family and for study abroad I also noticed many of the trends of Kpop/ korea were coming in or Japan had similar standards. It somewhat bothered me, as even my relatives and such were talking down about certain things.
I've seen the BrownEye,BlueEyes experiment before, and it's astonishing from a psychological point of view. As well as horrifying how its so easy to create hatred. Without doubt, if you compare the society we live in with this experiment there are so many issues in our world. And being privileged, we go blind towards the people lower than us. And at times only realize the issues when we are the ones who get the short end of the straw.
So I don't know How many of people have seen the musical "Avenue Q" but there's a Song in it called "Everyone's a Little Racist" and it's true...
Being Asian American, Japanese American, I feel that I'm quite racist. I realize and know that I often make fun of Japanese as well as Americans... and make asian jokes. A reason might be due to my confusion of racial identity of if I'm Japanese or American as I have both Japanese parents but being born in the states and raised here. One of the things I often do is make fun of how people talk, accents and I'm guilty. However it amuses me, somewhat theatrical, and characterized.
Personally I think it becomes very controversial, as I was part of theater I saw characteristics of characters as what makes them, "them" way they talked and looked was part of character, but that's also in theater, and in society it's called race, and due to it sometime unlike theater people are treated differently due to it. I guess at times it's making fun of them, however at times it's paints the truth.
Privileged people don't realize what they have, and others don't and yet they expect others to be same even though they don't treat people equally.