It didn't surprise me that those who had the most difficulty talking about their lived experience were white. They tensed up and had to look for words. Being white is ths default in this country, so we don't have to talk about it. A couple of the women were able to speak about white privilege; then there was the guy who kind of "poor me'd" about being both white and male. Seriously? Compare that with the members of other races, who were able to share their experiences of racism; to be looked at differently and to be hated because of their color. And being of mixed race within a race, particularly Black Hispanics, presents its own special challenges. The black men and boys particularly pierced my heart. Every time they walk out the door, they are a target. Even the youngest of those who shared expressed that understanding. To promise to live as their parents taught them and hold up pictures of them? There goes the myth there are no black families. All I can say about the police videos is that older white NYPD detective is very much a poster cop for why the police need to be defunded. "Why are you protesting? Get a job." Talk about a living stereotype! This just reinforces for me that saying "I don't see color" is racist and another luxury of white privilege. Because we, I, have to see not just color, but to listen to the lived experiences of people of color.