As a white woman I have always held intigue over "culture." I took a geography class in school and we obviously studied different parts of the world and thier culture. What they wore, what they eat, thier religion, different traditions they have and holidays and such. As I learned that information I was blown away by how beautiful it all was. How great ot was that the tradition and culture runs so deep.
I also reflected on my own life, and how culturally bare I felt. As an American, I can't say I have felt true belonging or appreciation for being American. I have always had a strong knowledge/level of undersatnding of how this country was formed and took away rights from so many people on our way to "greatness." My family is of French Candian Descent on my mothers side and Irish/British/Greek descent on my fathers side. With all of those different backgrounds we never celebrated any particular greek holiday. Never had inherently french food, or greek food, or had certain clothes that we wore. The family on both sides had engrained themselves to the American culture and ideal. It really does feel bland. Like you just exist with very little identity. I connected very much to the person in the video who stated being white is challenging in the loss of identity. The guilt that you feel.
I have been having more conversations with family members about race since George FLoyd and taking this training. They are very defensive and will say things to preface like "Well I'm just rascist because I'm white..." No...but you have to listen to what is happening. Reflect on your own behavior and ask yourself how can you be better? I see a collection of white people who come out and say "I shoudn't hav to apologize for slavery because I didn't own slaves." You're right, but you still benefit off of the system more than people of color do.
I hurt in my heart especially watching the video on Native Americans. I did not know that they do blood testing to determine how "native" they are. I will take the time to educate myself more on that topic.