I identify as Asian American, and Filipina American to be more specific. My parents are both immigrants from the Philippines, and I was born and raised in California. Though I grew up "stateside" as they say, I am no stranger to the impacts of colorism in Filipina/x/o culture, having had to deal with it as early as I could remember. One could say I'm pretty light skinned, but definitely not light enough to pass for white. Even if I was that light skinned, my eyes would give me away for sure. And still, I'd had elders in the family treat me favorably because of my skin color, to the end that cousins my age resented me. Because of skin tone. Growing up we always heard, "Don't stay too long in the sun -- you'll get dark!" I remember some getting scolded or spanked because they'd come back from outside with a pretty deep tan (we are of Philippine descent, after all). Our mothers' respective beauty regimens included products like skin-whitening soap, skin-lightening toner, and "pearl cream" moisturizers. Though I don't know the source, I'd heard that today in 2020, the skin whitening industry in Asia is worth $5B USD. One cannot argue and say that perhaps it's an aesthetic preference. The Philippines were a Spanish colony for about 400 years, and the colonial mentality is deeply engrained. Filipina/x/o people believe that dark skin is inferior and unacceptable, equated with savagery. Culturally, the closer in proximity one is to white skin, the more acceptable and even superior they are. And for me, the more one aligns their value as a person based on how much more "white" they are, the more anti-Black they feel.