I felt incredibly stressed taking the tests - I feel like I was trying so hard to not get anything wrong and to outwit the test in a way so that I wasn't allowing my biases to get through (even though I know I have them) and my results would reflect what I wanted them to reflect instead of what is likely the truth . Some still reflected biases though, and I think it was a good exercise to recognize the work you have to do within yourself to unlearn racism and that. Even recognizing like hey on this section I felt like I was trying harder to get the "right" answer than in another section.. it's very telling.
I agree with you Maren. I was right there with you. I didn't want't to let my biases get in the way, but in doing so, I was stressed to get the right answer and made silly mistakes where I shouldn't. Many of these areas I knew I had bias, but it was not as strong as I had thought. I think this will be helpful as I go through this module to recognize, that while I recognize I have bias that there is a long way to go for me and that I need to recognize better ways that my biases might be factoring into things.
Yes, any "test" can feel stressful and especially with the added sense of judgement/guilt. I appreciate the awareness that comes after the test, through reflection, that most of our judgements are not even as thoughtful as they are on this test. In real life, making the effort to be "right" is a good thing. On a different level, the test makes me think of all the associations and biases we apply to locations and cultural institutions in our city as being somehow good or bad.