I would say I was shocked by the history from our country that no one speaks of, but I think I was more sad than shocked. Sad that I never knew most of this dark history prior to watching these videos. Sad that I know this is just the surface and there is so much more out there that is not covered in schools. I live in Harrisburg, and I have heard about the Carlisle Indian Boarding School my whole life. We even took a field trip there when I was in grade school. Learning the dark history behind it gave me chills. Just as I'm sure some will accuse these videos of being propaganda to push one side of an agenda, it has become very obvious to me that traditional American history education curriculum is very one-sided and has an agenda. As an educator, this not only crushes me, but it makes me realize just how important it is for ALL educators to humble themselves and become lifelong learners. I am in an EdD program for Educational Leadership, and I want to be the best educational leader I can be. Not recognizing the privilege I have in my life will never allow me to become a leader. While these videos are hard to watch and hard to come to terms with, it is allowing me to see my privilege in this world, which I believe is step one to learning about how to be anti-racist.