I've just watched the first series of videos. I feel overwhelmed and helpless at the scale of the issue of racism, how deeply it runs and the many many ways it plays out over the entire planet. I notice I'm experiencing this sense of overwhelm through some kind of emotional distancing as I watch the footage and I'm surprised at how little I feel on an emotional level. I have a certain amount of grief and rage in response to these events portrayed in the clips but this is shockingly disproportionate to the actual outrage I know is possible and appropriate and waiting to be accessed in me. I'm wondering, or telling myself, that it must be something in the way these historical events are being 'reported on', the news-style production that is leaving me feeling 'untouched'. However, I'm sure there is much more to it than this - why I don't experience the atrocities that are happening to other people with an immediacy that feels closer to home as if those people were me or mine.