Nearly all the reports and information coming out today, of our collective history, of the myriad of issues associated with race in this country, have not been anything I didn't already know. The question I've been struggling with is, if I knew this was happening, why haven't I done anything? What is the root of my own complacency? Is it because it hasn't directly, negatively, impacted my own life? Is it because I have no faith in my ability to effect change? Am I so afraid of conflict that I can't call out when I see injustice? When did I lose all hope that we actually have any say in our system?
I have no answers to any of the above questions; but my guess would be I have been subject to all of them in some form or another. I need to get more comfortable with being uncomfortable, asking myself the tough questions and ferreting out the even tougher answers.