I suppose the most challenging part was just how painful it is. It is hard to imagine what it may be like to experience such oppression. As a woman I have felt myself in tears to be turned down for a job, assessed when buying a car and seeing the car salesman is trying to take advantage of me because I'm a woman and I've been in some abusive relationships where there was violence and terror. My experiences were cradled in a lot of privilege though. I can reflect on my own frustration, fear and lack of self worth to guide me as I empathize and try to understand the perspectives of people of color. I can also use those experiences to connect to the deep feelings I have about injustices. I think that it can be hard to maintain the commitment to be consistent activists because we forget the pain, the history and the outrage - after all, those feelings are hard and can feel impossibly tragic at times.
That said, I also think about how utterly frustrating it is for people of color to have to try to explain to white people the history and what they know and experience. I listened to a recent talk given by Trevor Noah that was so powerful and so honest. He talked about the response to the police given the fact that the police broke the social contract. I was myself feeling anger at the people who were looting and creating more trauma rather than peacefully protesting. Trevor called me out as he explained that black and brown people have been told forever how they should react to tragic events by white people. "You shouldn't bring your children to protests." "You shouldn't boycott the buses." "You shouldn't get so mad." It was an important lesson for me how I can get into a judgemental know it all mindset.
Thank you for the variety of videos. This was particularly important because it tells a much more comprehensive narrative. This is not about white on black. It is about maintaining white power over anyone who is not white. This is an excellent training!