Watching all of those videos brought up a lot of emotions. There were some things I knew, and much that I didn't. I felt shocked, horrified, disgusted, saddened, angry, and of course white shame and guilt. It's a lot to take in at once, but it is much needed for every privileged white person to learn ALL this information and more. For me watching them, I became absolutely ashamed of the United States. For many years now, I have learned more and more "secrets" of what people in power in our country have actually been doing, in many realms of society, and I'm dismayed at how well they have kept things hidden from a lot of us for so long. I'm also distressed how well their brainwashing on white people has worked, how they have hid the total history of our country from us, how they have lied to us, but this all of course is just blame on others. I also know now that I can't just blame others but I need to look within and see what I have done to continue the status quo and what I can do NOW to be active in changing it.
Another point I wanted to make is it's been both wonderful and troubling to see people talk about these issues on social media. There are many allies and white folks wanting to learn more and help, but then I've seen some family members of some of my friends comment on their posts that they completely disagree with them and never want to see or talk to them ever again. So there are some people coming together and some people being torn apart. It just seems crazy to me that 1. People can deny what is happening and what has been happening for a long time. 2. People can watch videos or look at actual facts/statistics about racism against black people and other people of color and STILL outright deny that they are true. 3. Refuse to do absolutely anything to actually see the truth or do any kind of work within themselves. I guess to them, their world is the only world worth their attention. Ignorance is a strange thing and definitely on a spectrum, or different kinds of ignorance.