I am embarrassed to be so ignorant to the systemic barriers in place that create unequal access to many of the privileges I have as a white person. I don't know how to feel; guilt, sadness, anger.... I feel torn in half about the injustice in many of the traditional perspectives that I've believed in all my life. My mind goes back to recent images since the George Floyd death and recall the emotion realizing it isn't all about a black man's life taken by law enforcement but an entire history of systemic evolution that kneeled on this man's neck! This training is so important as education is a key to true change. Without objective information on racism, how can we know the oppression of others? Maya Angelou said, "when we know better, we do better" and I now have the responsibility of the knowledge I will gain here. I will let my emotion be productive as I continue on this uncomfortable journey towards becoming anti-racist.